Child Sexual Abuse – The most important conversation most people will never have.
April is National Child Abuse Awareness month. So I feel compelled to address this topic, though truth be told, I have almost talked myself out of this post over two months now. So why is this a difficult post for me? Well the answer is simple; I myself am a survivor of child sexual abuse.
Being a victim of such an ugly crime makes an already difficult subject nearly impossible to confront. Yet, after much internal debate, here we are. This is something that I’ve not told many people. EVER. As a matter of fact, many of my loved ones will find out about this through this post. My reasoning for coming forward and taking a step to share what I’ve been through, is to further drive my point, that while some secrets shouldn’t be kept… they’re much more difficult to reveal than many people realize.
Being older now, wiser, more intellectually and emotionally developed, you would think that revealing my secret would be easier. But it’s not. Even though I now understand that nothing that happened to me was my fault, having that knowledge doesn’t bring the peace that some people might think it would. There still exists a great deal of shame and fear. Shame that I did nothing to earn. Fear of what people may think. Fear that my family will blame themselves, though they too did nothing to create my fate. My hope is that through sharing my story and my perspective I can pass on just a little bit of bravery and courage to parents and children alike as you approach this very difficult topic.